WE WISH YOU A DIRTY CHRISTMAS

We wish you a Dirty Christmas
We wish you a Dirty Christmas
We wish you a Dirty Christmas
and a Filthy New Year

Real horny am I, whoever you are
Real horny on Christmas and a Filthy New Year

Oh, bring us a box of condoms
Oh, bring us a box of condoms
Oh, bring us a box of condoms
and a can of whipped cream

We won't go until we get some
We won't go until we get some
We won't go until we get some
so bring your ass here

We wish you a Dirty Christmas
We wish you a Dirty Christmas
We wish you a Dirty Christmas
and a Filthy New Year

sometimes they need to just kill me because what they say hurt more than death itself. i suck as a human being and apparently are the worst child to be born into this family in a long time. and why is that ? because i wear my <3 on my sleeve.

lonely

well, thanks for the nice meal and the time spent with family, thanks for a day without arguing. But I've been thinking not about giving thanks, but about giving. Giving on holidays and birthdays, what I've given and what I've received. Is it really ok to keep something for yourself knowing that someone you love wants it just as much, if not more ?? Is it really ok to give you pretty close friend a gift that was bought and your best friend a gift that was recycled ?? Is it really ok to give your friend something that you like instead of what she wants ?? If it's the thought that counts than how come nobody ever thinks about what they are giving people. I know personally I put a lot of thoughts in the gifts I give, but sometimes I think I put too much thought in them, considering what I get from people is not nearly as special in the thought department. It hurts me.

Speaking of things that hurt me, I have not written in a few days, ok maybe a week and this is all due to the fact that I have been very sad lately, as my mom's sister, my Aunt Gloria, mom's only living full blooded relative left from her family (other than her kids, me and Donny) passed away this past Thursday and the whole family has been very sad. Even going to a convention didn't really cheer us up much, partly due to the fact that the con was in it's first year and highly unorganized, but we did find some really cool stuff and totally bought them. I decided to be generous and get my best friend a shirt that totally broke me. LOL, but whatevers it's what I do to show love.

Speaking of love, with all the love I show to people, I feel very under appreciated. I hate to sound vain, but this Thanksgiving Day, people oughtta be thankful for me.

please, my Aunt Gloria is in the hospital right now and is not responding well to treatment. I don't know what to do. Mom's crying like crazy and I cannot comfort her, please pray for my family.

than you.

Nobody, but my fiance, who by the way lives with me left me a happy birthday comment on myspace!! A few people left me comments of face book for the past couple of days, but nobody on myspace. I did get a happy birthday on lj here, which was nice, but still I figured I get at least one comment on myspace.

I can't say my birthday was bad, but it def wasn't great. I had a nice dinner, which I had to pay for half of. Also we played DICEcapades (me, Corie, Dory, Ben, Ellie), while Maya was drawing then we went bowling, bowled two games, Corie won both our games (me, Corie, Dory) and Ben won the first game on his team and Ellie won the second, Maya epically failed, but that's alright cuz I did too. Jason met us there and kicked Corie's ass in air hockey then we came to my house where Jason kicked my ass and Ellie's ass in Uno, while Corie and Maya played a very confusing game of pool, that seemed to be more funny than serious and somehow Maya ended up laughing her ass on the floor about she forgot and we got footage of that. Then that was it, they all went home. And I'm here, alone. Alone without Corie because he by the grace of God is dropping both Maya and Ellie off. I think. All I know is right now I am alone and that's the way I feel...alone. I can't wait 'til Corie returns. Speaking of Corie...

Corie doesn't have a lot of money or time or energy or whatever, he cannot be responsible for everything and everyone. And it seems like most of the time either he is responsible or I am and to me, that's not fair, we have our own problems to worry about. We have enough on our minds and we have to deal without without having to worry about anything else. It sucks.

So for my b-day I got money from my 'rents. A game from Dory, a Target gift card from Ben, candles, a fairy figurine, a silver compact mirror, and a scarf from Maya, a pair of free Universal tickets and a earring and necklace set (gold clouds) from Ellie that she used to own, but figured I could use more b/c I love celestial things. My brother said he was going to give me a present tomorrow, so hopefully he gives me like a Visa Gift card that I can use for Zona Con, if I can go. I feel like crying right now, b/c I just realized that I have to buy 2 tickets for ZonaCon and...I didn't even get a free dinner and I got...uggh it's just too upsetting...good freakin' night.

and i can cry if i want to. i feel crappy. happy 25th to me.

confused and pissed and now annoyed. i'm gonna go be a geek in order to feel better about things.

and a little concerned. also i am pissed b/c my camera has not arrived yet and today is day 5, gah! well i'm gonna sit here and wait...uggh.

shoot myself. Kill me. Kill now, please! Please pull the trigger. I'd rather get it over with than die slowly, which is how I'm dying right now. I just don't get it. I've tried everything, I'm just sick of trying when you will never care. So just kill me and you won't have to hear from me or anything like that ever again.

today even though it's actually tomorrow. Gonna go eat at my "cousin's" Italian restaurant and maybe come home and have cake and then give her a gift and stuff. I told mom and dad that all I wanted for my b-day was money, hopefully over 100.  I need it big time. Corie and I are gift-carding mom, we got her a Sweet Tomatoes gift card and a Bath and Body Works gift card. All I want is money. Money. Money. Money. Well I gotta go. We are leaving soon.

turning. partly because I am hungry and partly because I am sick to my stomach about certain things. I guess it's true what they say when they say -------- -- -----. And it's a shame too. Anyway, I gotta go to work soon, so I should get something to eat. I'm a little depressed right now and I don't know why, but I am. Maybe it has to do with what I said before. I don't know. Anyway in just seven days I'll be 25, a little bit sadder, but wiser.

at Corie. Good fucking night.

so freakin' awesome! It was amazing. MJ's artistry is so unique. He was a talented man and he shall be remembered forevermore. Also Corie got pierced today. Both earlobes. He may get more as time goes by, but for now he wanted to start with the basics. Right now he is heading over to Ani Hoko to get his ass kicked with foam swords. I decided to stay home cuz my chest is kinda hurting me. I'm not sure what it is, but hopefully it will go away soon. Mom is cooking chicken in the kitchen, she went with us to see "This Is It" with us. She enjoyed it. It's so upsetting to lose someone like Mike. Anyway, I'm working on Halloween as I suspected, unfortunately until 10pm, so not much of a Halloween, but in a little more than two weeks I'll be celebrating my 25th, so yeah. Well I'm outtie for now, nice catching up though.

today and by a little I mean, a lot. I'm tired of my 'rents always on our backs about how we don;t do shit around here, so I decided to buy some things for the house. A few meals, side dishes, milk, bleach, paper plates, etc. Mom seemed appreciative and dad seemed like a  Shia Lebeouf (it's a Bill & Ted Halloween thing). Anyway I'm sick and have been so for the past couple of days, but now to add insult to injury I have my period too. Yay! LOL, it totally sucks, my head is congested and my back is so killing me. Maya's not going to church today, it's just gonna be Corie, Ellie and I, which is gonna be weird, but oh well, there is always next week. Corie and I are trying to save some major cash for the wedding and school. we recently got a raise so hopefully it'll help. Well, as I stated I'm not feeling good, so I am outtie, just thought I'd update a little on how I am doing.

to download or not to download, I guess that is the question. I mean I don't think it's a bad song, but I haven't immediately taken to it either. I suppose I should  here it a few more times before deciding.

In other news, I am going to Halloween Horror Nights with my fam and Corie and Ellie tomorrow, should be freakin' sweet. Lately I have been working a lot lately, today is my day off, but Corie is workin' Oh and recently we remodeled our room. It's pretty sweet. Why do I keep saying sweet ? Anyways, I have to go I am kinda busy in the process of writing a letter, checking my grade and tidying up. Bye for now.

annoy the hell out of me.

Howie, lol. Anyways on a totally unrelated note. I miss hanging out with my friends. I hate work, but need the money, but lately it seems like it's been all work and no play and I've been only seeing my friends once a week for a few hours or less. Uggh. I don't know why I agreed to work tomorrow either. Well I'm off to work now, so bye.